fff#29 As much as I had loved him
Posted: October 18th, 2010 | Author: lise | Filed under: FFF | Tags: flash fiction fridays, Lisa Allen-Agostini, moving on, Trinidad & Tobago, writing | 1 Comment »For the background, see the posting before this one.
fff#29: as much/little as… (starter)
As much as I had loved him, I hate him now. I see his car–an unmistakable maroon Toyota with a silly, excessive spoiler at the back–and my stomach churns with disgust. I’m not stupid. (Well, maybe I am stupid. I was with him for five years, after all.) I know the disgust is as much for me as for him. I can’t believe all the things I put myself through to be with him. All the blatant rubbish I endured to call him mine. Mine? Never was. His lies and my complicity leave me bruised and tired now just thinking about him.
Inevitably, every time I think about him I think about how it ended: hearing from a third party that there was this other woman, incontrovertable evidence shoved in my face and hurriedly digested before a nasty confrontation between him, her and me. And even then, even then, as much as I hated him, I loved him still.
ent!
didn’t expect this week’s trigger to make us all emotional; someting in the air?
walk good.